Help

Gosh yall..Im sorry if I repeat everything over and over again. You know, I've(once agin haha) have been considering everything..which I do alot if you haven't noticed. But do you feel the urgency that I feel? Does the way of what we are torture your heart, soul, or mind? I heard an awesome song by Switchfoot the other day.
And that is so true. I cry sometimes when I think of the ones I love. People who may be wasting their lives...which we are all guilty of. I haven't been this way for more than really a whole year. I didn't used to think of what I do now. It all seemed second on my priority list...like the 'we are what we are attitude'! But that is NOT TRUE! Please, all of you...including me! Look at who you are! Think, if we all loved instead of hated..we would BE making a difference NOW. But just as I said yesterday...we cannot live without eachother and we are COMMANDED to be UNIFIED as a WHOLE...not little peices. In the military, do soilders kill their allies? What do they do? They protect eachother. Football...they block the other team, protecting their side! Are they all best friends? Not always. Are they acquaintances? Yes. Girls, I know..ok. Its hard for us sometimes. She says something to her, who tells your best friend, who in turn tells you. I get it...but..it's something we can try and change. Guys too, for that matter.
I guess what I'm saying is...in the bible it says stop gossip and all quarrels will cease. Love will take it's place if we try. But really, God is there but we just have to be open. So if you read this, for the rest of the week or how long you want really...see what happens when we replace love for gossip. I will...so how bout it?

Change

Well I haven't done this in a while! But I've had a few things on my mind here lately. Unity of christians, following what we were meant to do, purpose...stuff like that. And I feel it's time the church as a whole becomes one.
And I'm sure you've heard me say this before, though. How can you say that you are so close to God when you gossip about one another in his house. How can you say that we all need to live out our faith when you don't help and complain and argue? It's time for a change...

Learning Every Day

Well today everything went good. I had a good day, I got everything done, and yeah..great right?
Well not long ago my mom revealed to me that my grandpa is going to have to get a heart cathader. (Sorry if I mess up the spelling..=] ) And that made me die a little inside.
But it made me think. If I hadn't had a good day earlier, this wouldn't have set with me. It hurt to hear but I could take it. If it had been bad I wouldn't have been as calm as I was. And in that same way my grandpa was in good health, all but this anyway. It makes him stronger. His body can handle it better.
But not only did this make me happy, but it taught me something. That things happen to prepare us for the next round. My grandfather in the past few years has made a better way of living. This resulted in making him healthy. Just in that same veiw I have gone through many hard time and that has given me insight. God sets up these kind of things for a reason. He gives us hard times, new ideas and perspectives, etc. to help us and heal us. I knew this before but everything just makes more sense to me now!♥:)

New Veiws..♥

Ok well these past few days have had me thinking alot. In church we have had a series called "Make War" by Scott. And its all way more clear to me now how dangerously close everything is to eachother.
Heaven and hell are hanging in the balance. We talked about this. And it's so true. We have every oppertunity in the world to go the other way. But none of us are perfect. No one will ever not do anything wrong. Only God is the face of perfection.
And me..I never learn. God died for me and yet I still sin..I still do things that kill him. He died for me and I still hurt him. And every time the world takes me down, its never for long...only because God is there to catch me when I fall. But even though I recover, I never fully recover. In my head it still is there reminding me of everything I had ever done and everything thats sure to come. And its so hard to see past.
But over time and through the wisdom of others I have learned something major. You have to be able to forgive yourself. God will always love you...even if you sin and stuff...but you have to know that you were wrong and try and make things better..because He loves you and he only wants us to succeed.
Times are getting tougher. People are becoming more calloused towards Christianity so we have alot to go through. But thats how it was supposed to be. That is why we make war. that is why we cant be fractured. Being fractured will only hurt us more...and we will be seperated completely. And some cant see it but that is Satans goal. For us to be all messed up and everyone turn against us. But that is why we have each other.
I just think its time for us to throw our childish minds behind us and find a different perspective because its what we are asked to do. i am and I pray that you do too.-♥-